Nerve Damage - Day 8

Yesterday I woke up just like any other day. Started my day with my devotions and then read something from Lysa Terkeurst on Facebook that stopped me in my tracks. She was asking for prayers for ringing in her ears that had not stopped since she had ear surgery a week ago. My heart immediately went out to her as I could feel her pain. I prayed for the Doctors to be able to diagnosis what was wrong and prayed it was temporary.

As I went on about my day I thought about her and the new frustration that she was facing. The constant loud ringing...not being able to sit in a quite room for the loud high pitch ringing, having to ask people to repeat themselves or just nodding that you understand what they said when you really didn't hear them. The headaches from straining to listen or from the constant ringing. The distraction it causes when you are trying to concentrate and the ringing that interrupts your concentration. It is SO frustrating and completely wears me out...so I prayed as I went through the day that if it was God's will to heal her that he would.

Later in the afternoon Lysa posted again that she was diagnosed with severe nerve damage and hearing loss. My heart broke as I read those words...severe nerve damage and hearing loss...it brought back the memories of my Vestibular Nerve Damage and Meniere's diagnosis and the hearing loss that went along with it and the flood of emotions that I felt. To be told one diagnosis...that was enough but two? AND to hear the words from a Specialist "Double Whammy". That didn't help with the anxiety or the fear of the unknown. What was my world now going to be like? Do I have to live like this forever? There is no cure? There is no pill to take to ease the symptoms or to make it go away? (For me even if there was a pill to take I wouldn't take it. Too many weird side effects have happened to me and I prefer not to take anything.) 

One part of me was relieved to have a diagnosis but then another part was scared and fearful and wanted to snap my fingers and make it all go away. To go back in time and take away my car accident or even to stay at work instead of going to lunch that day. BUT going back wasn't an option I needed to stand tall, face it and learn how to live with it.

My heart goes out to Lysa and I pray for God to give her the patience and peace to deal with this new way of living that she will experience or for her healing if it is God's will.

"Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope." Romans 5:1-4 NIV


                       Thank you God for such a beautiful blue clear sky!